Tuesday, February 16, 2010
I love my life at the moment. After doing the hard yard for a few years with babies (both children and a baby family business) and location shifts we’re finally settled and my soul has some breathing space. I love being a school mum (despite the emotional first few days) and I love that the smallest pink is almost two and getting more independent by the day. There is finally time for me to be me - even if is still only in small bursts here and there. I feel like I'm taking back some control of my life ...... and I'm loving it.
Occasionally I get to sit alone and read.
Occasionally I get to sit alone in complete silence and just be.
Occasionally I get to think about what I want to do in the future.
It still feels really indulgent to think about myself. How silly is that!! Never think I'm complaining about how we chose to raise our kids. We decided together early on that I'd be a stay and home mummy and I put my heart and soul into it. I've read, crafted, danced, played, finger painted, cooked and wiggled my way around our home for years now! And I'm still glad I did (and still do:). But now it's time to change the focus and shift it a little bit further in my direction.
So, I have a little breathing space for my soul. I'm loving blogging but I know there is more. I've got this little need growing to do something more - I just don't know what it is yet. Silly as it sounds! Ideas are running in and out of my brain being assessed and either discarded or filed away. I'm almost frustrated that I can't pin anything down yet. So for now I must just be content with my breathing space for my soul and the lovely expectations I'm feeling. But stand warned world - this mummy is going to do something - sometime soon.