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Okay, time for couple of F.A.S.T honest truths from 'The Truth About Mummy'. I really don't have time to write this post right now - but it's in me so I
need want to. The messy kitchen, unmade beds and other domestic chores will have to wait for their goddess today!
I've been feeling a little discontent about my blog this week. Now if I can only put into words why. A combination, I think, of feeling a little 'left out' (oh whoa is me) of the rapturous reports and afterglow from the AMB conference (bloggyworld seems a little slower as it baths in the radiance of the attendees post conference posts) and my own internal conflict between writing this blog to suit myself and writing to entice readers and have impressive stats. There, the great bloggy dilemma is exposed.
If I am totally honest I think I'm a bit stuck between these two conflicting reasons to blog. In some ways I see blogging a little like one of those facebook games like Farmville. (I can't actually remember the names of any other ones but I know there are squillions of them.) Only here in bloggyland while building our blogs, attracting new followers and sourcing unique visitors, (the game) we get to use our creativity, make new cyber friends and attract PR attention (get free stuff!!!). This is my chosen game and it can be thrilling. However, on the other hand this is my blog. My space for 'me' stuff - and sometimes the two don't mesh. I love getting new followers, good stats and loads of comments. But I also like to be authentic and write about what is in my heart right at this moment - which may not necessarily be popular or click worthy. You see my current mind set? Playing the game is fun but in the long run I think I'd rather have a creative space which makes my heart sing, my face smile and feels like an extension of me.
Now, as I am writing this the answer to my bloggy dilemma is forming in my mind. (That, of cause, is why I love to write - despite being a member of the dyslexic race.) I can do both. I just need to keep in mind my favourite word "B.A.L.A.N.C.E." and to concentrate on just being what I am. And that is a truthful mummy with stories to tell about life in the mummyhood. This may not be the appropriate strategy to build a super blog, but I'll just have to live with that. I honestly don't see myself as the superblog type anyway - I just don't have the time and energy (and possibly the personality) to pull that off.
So there you have it. Ramble over. I'm once again feeling happy and at peace with my blog and its role in bloggyworld. Thanks for giving me the space to 'thinkwrite' my way back again my bloggy friends.